Relationships in 2008.
We meet, I like you
I do things for you because I want you.... for MYSELF
I keep doing things for you... for me.
I love you... You realize I love don't you ?
I trust you, I do more for you so that you notice me.
But you dont...notice me. So I do more, and give you more
A vicious cycle this is. But I cant help it I LOVE YOU.
Im FALLING.... IN.... "LOVE"
You still know I love you;
You love that I love you
But you don't love me... as in... Me the person.
I give you everything.
my heart..give
my time...give
my money...give
my grades...down the drain
my values.... out the window.
I have nothing left
And you've got everything
and you shove it back in my face.
... but hang on; I DONT WANT IT BACK !!!
I wanted to do a healthy exchange you know ?
I give, you give.
But sadly I learnt that is not how this world works
You see in this world
I give, I loose, You win.
So now you have ruined me,
I have trust issues,
I have confidence issues,
I can never regain the innocence I once had
I can never restore what has been shattered.
How do you restore a broken heart ?
Now I walk around this earth with all this baggage , I one of the "crew". The crew of baggage carrying 20 somethings that is empty and trying to find something to fill them up.
But do you think I am going to sit and do nothing about this ? Oh no... thats not how it works. You see, I am now on the prowl, looking for the next person who will be naive enough to trust me. I will steal what they have, so that I can get back some of what you took from me. Its only right; I have got to get me mine....
But then again, you probably only took from me, because you had once been naive like me and someone took from you. Thats what happened isn't it ??
So this is what this whole dating thing is about, one vicious attack after another to try and recover what we once had but "gave away"... The question becomes; when does the cycle end ? Who is safe in this dog eat dog world ?
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Somebody tell me being single is the way forward !! lolz lolz heheheh after conversation with Thomas, Noth, Tash etc etc I have seen that love brings tooooooo much heart ache at our age. Perhaps I just need to fall in love first before I understand the whole dating thing. teeehehee But you know with all the people I have consoled over the last few years about relationships they seem to bring more stress and anxiety than JOY ! My next post will be about how HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS work =) hehehe maybe I should email francis first about functional relationships and ask her; she seems to be part of the very elite club !!! stay posted pple !
Noth introduced me to this video "whos gonna save my Soul" by Knarls Barkley... man that song is TYTE !!! check it out on this web address... its DEEP.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTVSygNKAsg Enjoy people !
What you gna do about it mate ?!
Hello friends,
In two weeks time, I am volentaringly going without food for 40 hours. Unlike the 126 MILLION children in India ALONE that are in involentary trapped in poverty and hunger and the 60, 000 children that die everyday in Inida ALONE from extreme hunger (A process more painful than I could imagine.)
All of you have heard about child poverty and hunger; the big question is what are you going to do about it RIGHT NOW ? We could all say that I am going to wait till Im earning millions then I will give away a percentage of what I earn to charity; but the sad reality is that THOUSANDS of inocent children are dying as we talk RIGHT NOW and watch movies, listen to our ipods, hang out on facebook; go clubbing; go clothes shopping; go out for coffee... Do we understand the urgency of the matter at hand ? Would we not scream at the top of our lungs if it were our own child dying of starvation ? more so; would we not SHOUT at the top of our lungs if it was us dying of hunger ?
I know poverty is not your own problem; but unfortunately for the vast majority of the children forced into child slavery and poverty and hunger.... its not their fault either. Are you going to step in and DO SOMETHING ? because you do have the power to do something. You are in a position to feed someone be it for a month, a week, a year; you can do something !
How do I do something Mojo ? Well four steps you can take to do something !
1) You decide on a financial sum of money you are willing and able to put aside and donate for the 40 hours I will be fasting.
2) You Financially donate in one of two ways :-
a) Let me know you would like to donate, I will pass you my bank details and you can send in the money via internet banking or TT. After this, I will send you a tax receipt so you can deduct when its tax return !!
b) Hop onto www.40hourfamine.com>Donatenow and enter in my personal famine book number which is 28197859-3. when you donate in this way, I will be sent a notification email and you will be emailed the tax receipt so you deduct !
3) Tell others !!! pass on the word about the 40 hour famine, if you wanna get involved check out the website or let me know ! If you know friends that are into poverty and helping others etc, give them my email add and I will respond.
4) Pray. Wheather you believe in the power of prayer or not, what have you got to loose ? Say a prayer and believe for TANGIBLE results to transpire. "If my people who are called by My name will humble themselves and pray, and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and I will forgive their sin and heal their land"
Look, eveyone has their opinions and thoughts about poverty and many are sceptical about fund raising organisations, but people are dying and we can sit and do nothing... even if you donate x dollars and only 20 percent goes to the children in India, its still SOMTHING that is going to them... Its time to stop making excuses and extend a hand...
"I cant do eveything... but I can do something. So, because I can not do eveything. That does not mean I don't do that something that I can do"
We can all do something amen ?
Holla back if you are feeling me on this.
nothing
actually right.... Ive had nothing much to talk about for the last few months. Hence the lack of blog entries... hahah na jokes. Its just facebook has taken over my life. I seriously need help. I gotta stop living on facebook.
Its not my fault, Its just SOOOO COOL :) eheheheee
I honestly don't know how I have lived so long without it.
Anyway I will start to look for a shrink who can help me with my addiction.... Im sick.
Will do an entry when I recover... until then. Adios.
Husband... Country-My thoughts
Where is my husband going to be from ?? hahaha
Zimbabwe… How easy would that be? I would know him inside out most likely.
Italian…. Need I say more? hahah
French… what an amazing culture, and what great taste in fashion, food and wine
West Africa… I love the accent man! lolz
South Africa… he would have great style and a really sexy language (Zulu)
Australia…. Well we would have the most relaxed and easy going marriage! BBQ’s and swimming all the time we would have great athletes as children
Singapore… hahah 5 C’s lolz. What more could you want in a man ? (jokes, jokes)
Malaysia… exquisite taste in food… however I would probably lose him to Anime or Video games *wink*
China/Hong Kong… he would be a hard worker; a provider. And he would probably challenge me to be a better person.
Mauritius… Amazing accent
United States!!!! hahahah what can I say? He would be the epitome of coolness and we would have nice gangster kids lolz
Hmmmm in a couple of years I will know what country he will be from; perhaps none of the ones listed! It really will be interesting to see where he will be from tho, cous in one way or another, I identify with all the above cultures.
guess who's back !
well December 14 was the last time I blogged on my page hahaha Im sure the few faithful blogg readers I had have long departed :)
So much has happed... been a really crazy 4 months; and blogging has not really been a priority. So what has happened ??
1) I spent Christmas time working at Myer quite a lot of hours
2) I had a great Christmas and new year hanging out with Tash from Zambia
3) I went back home in February for two weeks
4) I managed to enrol without paying school fees, I was granted a scholarship !
5) I started working part time for ACl; best job ever !
6) I have been on 2 camps
7) I have been arranging cell group
8) I am currently trying to up my Uni marks which are quite average at the moment :(
9) I have become president of 2 facebook groups and valued member of about 5.
hahah that about sums up my life for the last 4 months :) lolz; na im kidding there is a bit more to me. I just wanted to get back into the blogging grove !
Optimism.
Isaiah 54:10
"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the LORD, who has compassion on you.
Isaiah 57:19
Creating praise on the lips of the mourners in Israel. Peace, peace, to those far and near, "says the Lord. "And I will heal them."
John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. *Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
2 Thessalonians 3:16
Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.
The Lord protects and assures us that things will get better and that HE is with us every step of the way. I WILL be a part of making things better in Zimbabwe, I am optimistic of the future of this lovely country.
"We are more than conquerors in Christ Jesus... were worriers, victorious !"
Child prodigy.
The Forbidden Fruit
…One morning I woke up earlier than usual, and right away I decided to paint, but I could not find any canvas in my studio. My family was still asleep, so quietly, still in my pajamas, I searched my art closets and found one small canvas that I’d worked on a few years ago, but later gessoed it in black.
After my prayer I began painting a young woman’s portrait. next to a branch of fruit. Suddenly I felt God say, blend all the races, because this is Eve, the mother of all mankind.
Right then and there, I understood the meaning:
The tree of the knowledge of good and evil is full of forbidden fruit: red for the knowledge of evil, the green for the knowledge of good. It was created to be tempting, fragrant and easy to be picked. Although the fruit resembles the grapes, it was not.
At first, Eve thinks that she will gain wisdom by biting into the fruit of knowledge, but unexpectedly she finds the deception as the red blood of suffering drips from the green fruit. The knowledge of good and evil is simply too much to understand and experience for a human, and now Eve is looking up to God for forgiveness and help…
- Akiane
I found this child prodigy on Miss Julia's website. I am so captivated by how God can touch a child so young and turn her into a word class artist. I am completely in awe of how amazing God is. If he can create a girl with such artistic talent, I can just imagine they day I see HIM face to face. I would not even be able to begin to describe his awesomeness and greatness. I would probably just fall flat on my face and be overwhelmed with his majesty and grace. totally consumed with his radiating love.
Anyway her website is
here its unbelievable. A child touched by God at the age of 6 and transforming the world ever since. How great is our God ?
